overturned.

All I can imagine right now are overturned tables. I've never seen it in real life, but in movies and in stories when people are angry they overturn tables and I feel like someone did that to the table that is my time here. I'm not ready to say its a bad thing, but the table is definitely upside down and on the floor now. I can see that its harder to eat when the legs are sticking up, but I'm trying to find a way and I am sitting in patience waiting for God to show me how.

So many surprises in the one week that I have been here. The first three days were an overload of information and shock and emotion. I can't explain all of the events and news but its all been very unexpected. Its been hard that is for sure. A heavy week filled with sadness, confusion, insult and very much in need of patience, wisdom and discernment on my part. Every time I've prayed in this past week I have prayed for wisdom and discernment. Those two things sound like water in the desert right now. I'm thankful for the patience that I've had so far and peace that God has granted me. I have little to no idea of what the rest of my time here is going to look like, but I have a feeling it is going to be a lot of rebuilding, not literally. Rebuilding relationships, credibility, and consistency and I don't mean on a personal level.

Praying that God will show me the way. Just trying to follow him and let him reveal some purpose to me. I am clay to be molded.

Happy fathers day to all the absent, addicted, unfaithful fathers of Haniville.